update

Lots going on lately and emotions are swinging all over the place.

Dad hasn’t been good. He’s having lots of bad days and has been to the doctor and hospital a few times recently to get his pain under control. We worry that we will lose him before Christmas – we are all planning to be home for Christmas, something that doesn’t happen often enough because we are so spread out and most of us have our own families and in-laws to divide our time between.

Dad is very keen to see his children home with him before Christmas so we are all heading home the weekend after this one. I dearly hope it’s not the last time I see him out of hospital. Even though I know that day has to come it’s still hard to face up to.

Swinging to the other side is that I’ve been asked to perform two weddings soon!  I’m very excited about it, one is a family member and the other is a friend so it will mean an enormous amount to me to do it.  I haven’t got my celebrant business off the ground, I’m only just managing to keep my other business going and do everything else that I need to do whilst still being available if/when Mum and Dad need me. I haven’t been able to face taking or more and making commitments that I may not be able to keep if Dad goes downhill and I have to be at home at short notice. These couples both understand that I may be called away and they are prepared to change dates or get a stand-in at short notice if needed. I’m very grateful for their understanding and that they still want me to be involved so intimately in this very very important day of their lives.  The planning is making me happy.

Miss A has officially joined Guides. I’ve sent all the papers in this week and she is so happy! At the moment she has swimming for her last lesson on a Monday, then Guides that night so she is quite tired and a bit grumpy on Tuesday.  She’s home this morning with a temp and headache. I suspect it might be partly because she’s adjusting to the new routine and is tired.  I’ll let her rest today and see how we go.